Wow

Wow I haven't been on here in a long long time. How has everyone been? Idk how Im feeling right now. Everything is just jumbled up in my life and I'm just now starting to accept the way things are and learn how to deal with it. No that does not mean that the hurt does not resurface and I do not have those late night crying spells. That just means that I am dealing with the crap and stress in a different, more positive way.

So there is this guy, y'all know who he is. He was a big part of my life since Summer '08. Notice I said WAS. Its so crazy how one day you can have your whole life planned out. Where you want to live, who you want to live with, your career, your spouse, your kids, your extended family, the number of bedrooms your house will have...what color shoes your first kid will wear. SHEESH! How could I be so blind? I had my life set in a box and I became so consumed in how great the future was going to be i completely didn't pay attention to the present. I became so comfortable in who I was with that I felt nothing will happen between us. So what happened between us? Beats me! Men have to pull away, they have to take a step back from the realtionship to find themselves, to be with themselves. (So I've read) So why do they have to do this? IDK. Really I think everyone needs to take a break from their serious relationship at some point to see if they stand alone as X or fall apart when XY splits. Thats what Im doing, standing alone as X, but im not going to lie, I was an XY. It was the worst feeling ever to be an XY but I wasnt born that way so why fret about it?

Man Idk what Im talkin about anymore lol class is almost over, until next time. Peace.