I'm tired....

Im tired of not feeling important to you, not feeling like Im the most special in the room. Im tired with fighting myself over that I feel are negative thoughts. Im tired of waking up in the morning and not seeing your text. Im tired of going to sleep at without a goodnight. Im tired of feeling so needy. I dont need these things, i just really want them. What I want is for us to be US Aug 14, 2008 us. W/o a care in the world, young, having fun & just being there for one another. I want somebody to listen to me when I talk about stuff that nobody could ever care about. I want somebody there to persuade me to talk when I really dont feel like it. I want somebody who isnt afraid to tell me what he wants, what he needs, what he feels. Even when its not all good. I dont want to be strung along. I dont want to feel alone when Im with you. I dont want to be sad, or even worse depressed. I want to feel special, beautiful, significant. I dont feel that with you, im not sure the last time i ever did. Its sad because at this point what I want more than anything is to leave mr. wrong and start with mr. right. Why cant my body leave? I cant seem to stop my body from needing you. I hate it I hate it I hate it, so why do I love you? It doesnt make sense and just thinking about it makes me tired. Im tired of dealing with it, im tired of thinking about it. I just want it to be over, but I really don't. Thats why this is so hard. Im just tired man. Time to sleep it off.