Stupid

No matter how much i tried to fight the feeling but feeling stupid is unavoidable. Most times it hits you wayyy after the fact. I feel stupid because I turn off my phone and then I turn it back on and the person who I was trying to avoid shows up on my screen. Leave me alone haven't you done enough damage? Stupid of me to respond. Stupid of me to feel relieved. Stupid of me to let my guard down. Stupid Stupid Stupid.
Ugh... I feel like im playing myself at this point. I hope I dont blow up in my own face.